Friday, May 22, 2009

inertia

it's been a long time since i happily rolled out of bed and onto my mat. i admit it. i look at my mat, and think "do i have to?" then my back, shoulders, and hamstrings tell me "yes! you have to!" so i do. amazing that once the mat is actually rolled out and i start to move my body how instantly happy i feel. every time.

image by cig harvey.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

my standing backbend is not like this. maybe some day it will. maybe it will never be so. either way, i LOVE back bends. which is why i was oh so glad when Gwen "prescribed" lots of backbends for me in order to open my heart every day. this morning i needed it. discouragement bombarded me last night as i began the search for a job. ugh. the list is grim--in so many ways. i have a feeling i'll be doing lots of backbends in the next few weeks and months as i try to make my way in this capitalist world.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

missing...

photo by me. april 2009.
yes...i have been missing from this blog.
school has consumed me.
barely enough to stop by here anymore.
but that will all change
when i graduate may 8th.
stay tuned.
things are going to get really good here...
can't wait!
fyi: love teaching, love practicing, love breathing and feeling!

Friday, March 20, 2009

Compassion

This morning's mantra:
om mani padme hum

it means: om-the jewel in the lotus-hum

"It calls on the bodhisattva Avalokiteshwara, whose name means "the cosmic being of pure consciousness who looks down in loving compassion on the world." He exists within each of us in our potential to feel heart-melting compassion for ourselves and all other living beings." - Christopher D. Wallis

have a compassionate weekend.


Thursday, March 19, 2009

Taking It Easy...

image via yoga journal
i spent about half an hour in supta baddha konasana this morning. The cycle continues! Hooray for being a woman!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Too Short...

I'm feeling like I ended my yoga practice a little too soon this morning...I can't quite figure it out. So I'm making it a goal today to truly practice yoga in the rest of my day's activities...even as I type I am finding the meditation in that...I will find a connection with the water in my shower to the water that flows through me. I will find breath and movement united as I ride my bike to meet my husband for a picnic. I am extending my yoga practice more deliberately today into ALL that I do. You might like to try it too!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Still Here!

photo by me. 3.15.09

Yes. I'm still practicing and teaching yoga everyday. I'm loving teaching at my mom's home and at the University of Utah as well. I continue to learn oh so much.

Lately, my personal practice has taken on a mind of its own...it acts much like a river. Sometimes I feel as if I am just sitting back and watching my body move and flow. Some movements feel thai-chi-like. My practice just gets more and more fulfilling!!

Friday, February 20, 2009

We Are the Ones We've Been Waiting For

This morning's classes were awe-some. We did a very yin, restorative class. To an observer, it would have looked like we weren't doing much of anything at all. But we went deep. We tapped in to what we were really feeling...and we let it go. We went deep. There were tears of relief, and bright eyes filled with hope. You never know how much you feel until you take time to listen and to be still. Read more about it here.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I LOVE TEACHING!

I am oh so grateful to be able to be teaching yoga right now. It truly is a gift. It's also nice to teach in my own home. Sometimes I wonder if I'd like teaching at a studio...I guess it would depend on what was "expected" of me. There are some wonderful women who come to my classes. They are so open to learning and trying new things. I wish I knew more people in Sacramento so that I could do something similar when I move back in May. I love charging only $3. And I love teaching in such an intimate and safe setting. I am oh so blessed.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

$3-Dollar-Yoga

Starting Monday January 26, 2009 I will be teaching yoga for $3 per person per class. Below are the details.

WHERE: My mom's basement
SCHEDULE: 
Mon, Wed, Fri 6:00 AM, 7:15 AM, and 8:30 AM
Tues and Thurs 7:00 PM

Each class is 60 minutes long. We'll practice astanga vinyasa, flow, and restorative yoga styles. Email me at lady.of.lorien9@gmail.com if you're interested and would like more details.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Plans

I've been thinking this morning of a conversation I had a couple weeks ago with a dear friend and fellow yoga instructor. We discussed our feelings about not being able to find a yoga studio that really quenches our thirst for learning and progressing (among other things). I am hoping that things open up, and that I am able to find a place to teach and to learn as well. Until then, I'll just keep doing teacher trainings year after year, and workshops month after month. I truly enjoy the journey of learning.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Found: Studio


So we've lived in our current apartment for just over 2 months now. And I'm now just finding out that there's a yoga studio just around the corner from me. Sheesh. Where have I been? When I come back to Sacramento in May I'll have to attend a couple classes to see what it's all about. Looks good so far.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Present

I find that I am most present in my practice when I am in a difficult pose, or when I am asked to stay in a pose for a long period of time...which made me think: Often in life, I am most present when things are difficult or uncomfortable. I am not concerned with what is going to happen. I am concerned with my broken heart, my confused brain, etc. Why is it that when things are going so-so in life that we tend to get distracted, and lose focus? Interesting. I am oh so grateful for difficult and uncomfortable moments.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Short, But Deep

Today I only practiced for 70 minutes. But it was deep, and nourishing. It got me thinking...how can I use yoga to heal the entire earth, and those who live upon it? It seems like there are too many choices...which way do I go? I will let that go unanswered, and go about my day-to-day living. I am grateful for my yoga practice, though it has oh so long to go (and I'm grateful for that too).

photo of Seane Corn via www.seanecorn.com

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Letting Go

This morning I did not do my asana practice...I slept in after a restless night. I've let go of all expectations in my life. We'll see where this leads.

photo by dan heller

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Arms & Back

Lately I've been so very much into a slow, meditative, and loosening practice that I've lost a bit of strength in my arms and back. So this morning I came up with a flow that brings attention to upper body strength and bhandas as well as continuing to loosen me up. I was quite pleased with this new sequence. Hopefully I can remember it!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Jivamukti Yoga

Jivamukti Yoga, "practices for liberating body and soul." I would love to practice jivamukti yoga, and teach it. I love how it focuses on study & understanding of the history, etc of yoga as well as promoting a deep asana practice. Too bad there's no studios anywhere near me. They have studios in NYC, Toronto, Munich, London, and Charleston. I hope to do a teacher training through them one day. For now, I'll read the book, and do as much on my own as possible.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Off the Mat

Tomorrow, Friday, I will be driving with my husband to Salt Lake City to attend a fundraiser we helped put together to help SUWA fight legal battles against the BLM who is auctioning off land to big oil business.

One of the biggest lessons I have learned from doing my yoga practice is that everything is connected...EVERYTHING. Our treatment of the earth has a direct affect on us. So I am an adament environmentalist and anti-consumer. This is part of my yoga practice..."90% of yoga is practiced off the mat" according to him.

Hope you will join us in this endeavor.

Unusual Gratitude

This morning I realized I was grateful for my inflexibility in some poses. There are some poses that come naturally to me, others that don't. I am grateful that I don't just fall easily into every posture...where would be the journey in that? I was grateful to be tight this morning while working in Hanumanasana...it felt good to sit and breathe, and to feel the muscles softening over a few minutes time...until I finally got it. I loved that little journey!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

New Day, New Person

This morning I woke up late (8:00 AM) because of a restless night. I took my time getting up, crossed everything off my to-do list, then started my yoga practice. Usually I put a time limit on my practice, but today I decided I would practice until I felt full. And, oh how full my soul is! When I entered into my pranayama practice near the end I felt very strongly that I am not the same person I was yesterday...that everyday I am a new person, free to be great, beautiful, and compassionate. Now, everyday I will look forward to the new person I am--able to make this a beautiful world.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

I'm Back, More Dedicated

Since my last post, my practice has been so very distracted. I have been so concerned with the future. My practiced has showed this. I have often lost track of where I was in a sun salutation, and my practice was shortened to one hour instead of 2.5 because I couldn't wait to get to my "to-do" list for the day. I filled my life with too many good things...to the point to where things weren't happening as slowly and deliberately as I'd like. So today I start anew...crossing things off of my "to-do" list without even attempting them...the only thing on my list now is to "simplify." Hope to be blogging here daily again.
I've been reading through this little book for the past few days. I'm hoping to get some insight on how to break some of my not-so-great habits in life. There are some passages that are more clear than others, but I look forward to the journey this presents. Here's little taste:

Whatever pain you feel, take it in, wishing for all others to be free of it. Whatever pleasure you feel, send it out to others. In this way, our personal problems and delights become a stepping-stone for understanding the suffering and happiness of all beings.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Suryanamaskar A

Today I needed a new beginning, a clean slate. So I spent an hour and a half slowly going through the ritual of suryanamaskar A--with some little variations as my body instructed. I took long, deliberate breaths, and closed my eyes. I loved raising my arms to the skies in gratitude, and bowing to the earth with awe. I am seeking a new way to approach the things I am oh so passionate about. This morning was refreshing. Now, if only I could have an entire week of ritual.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Left First

Lately I have been trying something new in my yoga practice: left side first. It sounds simple, but it really changes the whole feeling. It seems more introspective for sure. Try it out in your own flow. See what happens.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Solitude

Yoga is becoming more and more something I love to do either alone or in small, intimate groups. I feel more freedom to invite reverence, sacredness, and joy. I'm really enjoying practicing at home by myself, with my husband, or with a friend.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Rain for Music

This morning it was raining. I opened the window and did my morning practice as I listened to that beautiful sound. I wish I had that accompaniment more often. Love rain.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

The Space Between

It seems to be more about transistions these days for me, rather than the poses themselves. The dance between each posture is fascinating to me. It is in the transitions that we find grace and our fullest potential. I love the movement and the fluidity of the spaces between. I'd love a class that focused more on the transitions than the poses. Some day, yes?

photo via: www.infin8yoga.com

Monday, September 8, 2008

Exhaustion

I am giving up yoga classes that break me down to exhaustion. I found in my yoga practice this morning that I am stronger and more present when I can have a practice focused on endurance rather than complete fatigue. I can hold poses longer, and balance like I've never balanced. It really is all about slowing down, the breath, and the bandhas.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Rest

"We need to learn to make rest a part of our practice, and we need to take that rest long before we feel exhausted or frustrated." -Rolf Gates

"90% of our yoga practice is off the mat." -Pattabhi Jois

Lately I have been feeling the need to rest more in my yoga practice. But I also need to remember to rest in the rest of my life. I like this picture of a couple just sitting on their porch relaxing. This weekend I hope we can slow down our yoga practice as well as our lives to refresh ourselves before we have a breakdown.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Neglected

Bandhas. My practice as of late has neglected the bandhas for the most part. There is some attention given to uddiyana, but not enough. I need to bring back my bandha practice. When I really use them it is only then that I've been able to float into challenging balances. I really feel that no matter how much muscle I build I won't be able to have a graceful yoga practice without the bandhas.

What are the bandhas? They are most often referred to as "energy locks." I like to think of them as an "energy bind"...used to seal in life energy as I practice yoga. There are three major bandhas: mula (my favorite), uddiyana, and jalamdhara. Respectively the perineum (Kegel muscles for women), the navel, and the chin tucked in towards the chest. I really believe that the bandhas are the secret to a graceful practice.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Visionary

This morning after my practice I spoke briefly with a dear friend about the beauties of practicing on one's own. I mentioned that I often like to practice at home with classical music in the background...especially the music of Estonian compser, Arvo Part. My favorite album is Tabula Rasa with Gil Shaham on the violin. It's intense. But what I love most are the points of hesitation, the brief moments of silence before the storm. Whenever I compliment my practice with Arvo Part I am bound to have some sort of profound insight into my practice, my heart, the earth, and the universe. Try it.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Yoga To Open

I love that part of the Ashtanga tradition is the belief that ancient holy men "invented" the yoga flow to strengthen them and open them up so that they could sit comfortably and with ease as they meditated. I love doing Ashtanga in the morning and ending with an extra long period of meditation and pranayama. There's nothing like it.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Home Again

After three months of going to a studio just about everyday, I am finding that I am longing for my own practice again. I need the freedom to explore and to ask questions in my own practice. So I will be cancelling my studio membership for the time being (and saving some $$ while I'm at it!)

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Yoga Job! Glory, Hallelujah!

If you haven't heard via my other blog, I've got myself a job teaching yoga. It really is a miracle. Amazing how moments of light immediately follow moments of doubt. I will start teaching a couple time a week, and then as more people start coming I will be able to teach full time. It's at a health & wellness spa, and they're just beginning to bring yoga into the scheme of things. I'm excited about this job because it will allow me to teach in a way that is intuitive and personal. It will allow me to continue to learn and grow as I teach. Blessed be.

photo via: danusunt, flickr, see it here.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Gratitude & Reverence

Last night I did my own yoga practice at home. It's been too long since I've done this. I've been going everyday to a studio. After last night, I think I will do more personal practicing at home...there is nothing that compares to solitary exploration.

Anyway, last night I practiced a sequence that went back and forth between postures that opened my heart in gratitude and postures that brought me bowing forward with reverence. I think I held uttanasana for 25 minutes. An experience that was undescribable. I needed that reverence. You should give this a try.

photo via: www.davidsanger.com

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Hoping

I just got news that Syl will doing an encore Thai Yoga workshop in September! I was so bummed to miss it this month because I was already signed up for the one I am currently in. I'm hoping that the stars will align and I will be able to attend. This would be a fantastic learning experience!

photo via: White Mountain Yoga

Monday, July 21, 2008

1 Weekend Down, 25 Hours To Go



This weekend I spent most of my waking hours at Zuda. I'm completing their teacher assisting and anatomy training. It's been an interesting experience, full of learning. I am definitely learning some things about assisting and anatomy. But more importantly I am further defining what direction I want to go in as I work towards teaching full time. I am meeting lots of yoga teachers, and finding that the way I want to go in is not the norm. I am feeling strongly that I will be doing a lot of study on my own...but that doesn't mean I will stop going to teacher trainings...I hope to attend more. I also am feeling that I need to get my Yoga education from more than just studios...I need to take University classes that teach me about Hinduism, the history of Yoga, Hinduism, and other Eastern Religions. I need to get another degree from a University. Can you get a second degree once you've already graduated? Anyway, I'm happy to be learning a lot.
photo via: www.zudayoga.com (Anne Marie & Bill)

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Guru Purnima

Yesterday was a holy, faith-renewing day for Hindus. The day is Guru Purnima. It is the day that you honor your guru(s)...your teachers. It can be anyone who you have learned greath things from: a mother, a friend, a teacher, etc. It is also a day to honor the lineage of great teachers all the way back to the ancients and those who took time to pass on tradition. I was introduced to this day by a wonderful yoga teacher, Gangotri. She led us through some chanting and kirtan. When she sang it was so other-worldly. Truly, sound is the quickest way to the divine.

This is a story Gangotri shared with me in relation to Guru Purnima.
There is a beautiful story told about a man who wanted to walk on water. He begged his guru to give him a secret mantra or a special boon so he could complete this remarkable feat. The man was extremely pious and devoted, and he had been in his guru's service for many years. Therefore, the guru gave him a leaf, folded many times until is was very small. He told his disciple, "Within this leaf is a secret formula which will enable you to walk on water. However, you must not open it because the formula inside is a secret."
So the man agreed, and he takes the folded leaf carefully in his hands and begins his journey across the river. He is walking fine when suddenly he is overcome by curiosity. What could be this secret formula? Is there really a secret inside? Is it a powder or a stone or some holy mantra printed? Where did his guru get it? His doubts get the best of him and he begins slowly to open the leaf as he walks, careful lest any of the secret formula should spill out into the water. As soon as he unfolds the last piece to unveil the secret, he suddenly sinks into the water and drowns. Inside the leaf was written the simple word, "faith."
It was not the leaf, nor any secret powder or mantra that enabled the devotee to accomplish a miracle. It was the strength of his faith in his guru and in the "boon" his guru had given him. As soon as that faith wavered and doubt crept in, his life was lost. This is the power of faith.

photo via http://jeffreykishner.com

Friday, July 18, 2008

Ubiquitous


I can't go anywhere without hearing about Eckhart Tolle and his fix-everything books. I've been hearing about him for over a year now, but the past few months it seems everyone is talking about him at all times. I hesitantly bought The Power of Now book last week and have read the first fifty pages. It's good. Why the hesitancy? It feels too much like a fad. Yes, I'm being way too judgemental here. What I've read so far is good. He words some things very nicely and with clarity. I guess I am uncomfortable with the unquestioning attitude that everyone seems to have. It is a bit irksome that if Tolle says it, it is truth. I think that a lot of what he says is truth...at least it feels that way to me. But there are some things that don't sit as well. How come no one else is questioning? I know a lot of you have read his stuff...what do you think about him? What do you think about my thoughts on him?